I Feel Like I’m On A Reality Show

November 8th, 2006 at 12:33pm Brian

One of the things you here people saying that have been on reality shows such as Survior, The Bachelor, and Big Brother is that while they are on the show that all of their time is spent thinking and strategizing the game that they are playing.  They say that they lose touch with what is really going on in the world and find themselves getting very emotional about things they never thought they would. 

Well I can say that sitting here in Georgia I feel the same way.  I get up every morning thinking about what work is going to be like for the day and what projects I will be able to devote time to.  The day goes by lighting fast (being so busy and all) and off to the apartment I go.  Next I find myself each night in between getting calls from an excited boy in Michigan (Braylen) and talking with Jodi that my mind is still focused on work and all of the happenings for the day.  I struggle some nights to fall asleep due to thinking about work and find my mind still being in work mode come the weekend.

Now it’s not that my job is stressful (well it is work and it has its moments) but that I don’t have ANY THING ELSE GOING ON!!!!!!!!  It is amazing to me how much having a family and a house takes up your time and I can say I miss that very much.  So I am left with nothing to do but let my mind race and look for ways to improve the things that have brought me here to Georgia.  I am ready to start getting truly grounded here but I just can’t do that until Jodi and Braylen our here.  Without them and some kind of normal routine here I struggle with getting settled.  I look forward to the two of them getting down here and waking up on the weekends and doing those family type things that I had gotten use to back home.

 I have had my chances to go out and do some fun things such as the hockey game this last week and going home shopping for an entire day but the fact of the matter is that it is just not the same with my gang down here.  Jodi and I have talked about how we will need to expand our horizons and open ourselves up to more people down here and make new friends which I want to do but I just find myself fighting wanting to commit to that until they are down here.

I know that might sound strange but it is just such a foreign feeling to me that I need them to be here and with me before I can enjoy and get completely comfortable down here (or at least until we come back to Michigan hopefully in the near future).

I am excited that Jennifer is planning on coming down in Feburary to visit and I have three trips planned home in the next two months.  I also have my friend Joel heading down here tomorrow and we are going to South Carolina to see the Clemson / N.C. State football game on Saturday.  So I do have some things to look forward to, of course they all involve familar things to me from home.

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